Just A Note To Say

So for all of you who don't know, I have really been struggling these past few months. Yes, I can count all the reasons I'm happy, but sometimes I just wonder Why? I have had a rough couple of months with getting used to school, roommates "issues", and some personal issues. Also for anyone that knows me, you know that I am very down on my appearance. I hate my apperance, and quite frankly can't find much physically attractive about myself, let alone at times my personality either. Now I don't want you all to think I'm on a poor me level, because really I like myself over all for the most part, but as a common person occassionally I have moments when the "poor me" comes out.

Anyway, I woke up this morning...how do I put it...on the wrong side of the bed some what. I put on a baggy white sweater because well, it's getting cold, and pulled my hair into a simple ponytail and no makeup. (I have practically given up makeup all together). I went to my Book of Mormon class and sadly, ended up having to conduct because the two (Olivia and Kyle K.) that normally do conduct were not there. Here I was, feeling terrible already, I had been praying all morning for just help to make it through the day without having a break down, talking to my entire class and asking people to do stuff.

After I was finished conducting, I sat down and went through with the class just trying not to think. Now this is a class full of "singles" there are only two of us that are engaged and three that are married out of twenty some odd students. I was talking with one girl who just recently got married. She was a cute girl. About my size, a little taller, and obviously a few years older. Through out the class she kept looking at me and smiling, and trying to make small talk. All I thought was "Oh great obviously she can tell I'm having a terrible day and is just trying to get her good deed in for the day." I know that wasn't nice and really she is a nice girl from what I have met of her. Right before the closing prayer, she slide a piece of paper onto my desk...I read it...

"I just wanted to tell you you look so pretty today. I really like your white shirt, you look great in it. I'm so excited for you and good luck."

Some reason that note really helped me make it through today. I just thought, "woah, she totally touched base with one of my main issues of today." Anyway, ya that's one of my not so eventful moments in life. It's funny how prayers can be answered sometimes.