What a ride!

Well what can I say these past few days have been completely crazy and seem almost unreal to me now. I might as well start on Thursday and move up to the present.

At 9 Thursday morning I had a doctor's appointment to check on how my progress was. I was still at about the same stage, and my mid-wife told me that if I didn't have him by Tuesday she would start me. I was nervous and excited at the same. It was weird to think that within a few days I would be having a baby, of course I didn't know that a "few days" was longer than I actually had.

I got home from Logan at about 3:30 and at 4:30 my mom and I went to work. My back had been aching all day but for some reason the pains tended to increase every couple of minutes. My mom and I started to time how close together the pains were. They were timing almost perfectly at 15 minutes apart. Surprisingly to my bosses and myself I was able to finish my shift. At about 8, my mom, my sister, and I faced the storm to go back to Logan. We were only able to drive about 45mph the entire way because it was nearly a white out storm.

When we reached the hospital, I thought the contractions were only 10 minutes apart, but after the nurse put the monitors on me we found that they were actually 2 - 3 minutes apart.

Finally at 5:39 in the morning on February 1st, my baby boy arrived. He weighed 6lbs 15oz and was 20 inches long.

My time in the hospital flew by but it was good. I had so many visitors and all of them instantly fell in love with this little boy. One guest I was slightly surprised to get. On Saturday night, Chris came. I was actually relieved to see him. Although we are not together, it was easy to share this little boy with him. Our little boy has about an equal amount of both of us in him. A few months ago I decided to place my little guy for adoption and after about a month of praying and searching and praying some more I found the perfect family for him. I was also happy that Chris was able to meet this family, and I hope that there is no doubt in his mind either. On Saturday night, it was decided that this little guy would be named Braxton J.

After an exhausting day of so many visitors, I was able to go to sleep. Braxton stayed with me until 2:15, when the nurse came to check him. She took him to the nursery and was supposed to bring him back at 4, but I wasn't able to get him until 5:30. I was so tired that once I had him back with me, I fell asleep. I was even unaware that some time later, my mom had taken a few pictures of us asleep.

I have no doubt in my mind that these wonderful individuals will give him everything and more that I had hoped he would have.

He'll always be a part of my life, and holds my heart. I am very lucky that in the future I will even be able to see him and receive pictures of him. Like my mom said "he is going to a permanent babysitter" but there's more to it than that. He is going to a family that he will be able to grow and learn from, and receive an eternal life with.